A guest post…
A few days ago, I was…
Praying really hard that A’s tests come back good and we are on the road to recovery!
Praying that the EEG SHOWS NO SEIZURE ACTIVITY OR PERMANENT DAMAGE.
I’m listening to screams from the back hallway and I’m praying it isn’t my sweet two year old boy. I know these appointments are so traumatizing for him.
We thought we were being wise parents. We knew vaccines could be a risk. We only allowed one shot at a time, spaced out, and delayed. Our first pediatrician ‘kicked us out of their office’ because we dared think for ourselves. What did we do? We refused to give vaccines at the 12 month appointment because baby was sick.
His first shot was right around 4 months. He seemed to do fine on single shots. After we were refused service at the first office, we found another paediatrician. At the first visit in the new office we were pushed hard to give more vaccines than I was comfortable with. He was given the DTaP, Hib, and Prevnar (3 shots, but 5 vaccines in total) and my spouse and I watched our son convulse on the table right before our eyes.
We got dismissed from the second paediatrician the same day my son convulsed on the table during/after his shots. The reason? We refused to give him the Hepatitis A, Varicella, MMR, and Hepatitis B. They wanted to give him 4 additional needles with a total of 6 vaccines. We refused. They dismissed us.
I pray that every Mom out there will question everything that goes into their child. Most of my ‘friends’ ignore my posts about my son’s vaccine injury after receiving those shots a year ago, but vaccine injury is serious and it does happen more often than anyone wants to acknowledge.
Vaccine injury is SEVERELY under reported. I’m in the medical field and have seen it first hand. Doctors and nurses love to tell parents: “It’s just a coincidence, it couldn’t have been the vaccines.” I’m positive my child’s reaction to those vaccines happened less than 2 minutes after being injected. My child’s reaction was most certainly due to the vaccines. My child had ABSOLUTELY NO ISSUES PRIOR TO THIS EVENT. Doctors, nurses, all the assistants, and the office staff are all in absolute denial. When I recently went to collect my son’s medical records, including batch numbers of the shots, there was absolutely no note in his record of his reaction to the shots he was given. There was no documentation anywhere in his charts, even though they made us stay in the office for an hour of observation after his traumatic reaction.
I feel so alone in this journey because NOBODY wants to talk about the fact that vaccine injury occurs. I have to pray hard not be angry with all of this and with the people in my life that want to ignore that this happened to us. I’m just so thankful I didn’t agree to the other 6 vaccines they wanted to give him on the same day. If I had said yes, I might not have my son with me today. I trusted my Mommy instincts to at least limit the number of vaccines he received. My advice to other mothers is, follow your gut instincts, they are rarely ever wrong. This has been a very long journey for our family over the past year.
If I could say one thing it would be that nothing in medicine is ONE SIZE FITS ALL. Every drug has side effects and that includes vaccines.
Take time to read the ACTUAL INSERTS, not the sugar coated version the doctor hands you. Look at the ingredients, REALLY get the vaccine package insert and find ALL the ingredients (most of which aren’t safe for an adult, much less a baby). Make your informed choice because it’s your right as a parent. I wish I had done this.
It’s okay to say, “NO. I don’t want my child to have 5-10 vaccines pumped into him at once.” It’s okay to say, “I want to wait until baby is older and the chance of injury is less.” It’s okay to say, “I don’t want them to have vaccines at all until I’ve thoroughly researched.” It’s okay to research and come to your own decisions. It’s okay to not follow the herd and it’s okay to refuse to sacrifice your child for the supposed “greater good”. I assure you it’s better than living with the guilt of knowing that you were a part of your child’s injury by allowing it to happen.
What’s NOT OKAY is our society ostracizing parents of vaccine injured children and pretending it didn’t happen. THAT’S NOT OKAY!
If I said I’m being abused then I’d have everyone’s attention. If I said I was in a car wreck, I’d have everyone’s condolences. When I say a vaccine injured my child, NOTHING! It’s heartbreaking. I’ve never felt so alone on a journey in my entire life. Whether you agree with my current thoughts on vaccines or not, it’s okay to support me during a difficult time.
If our family’s journey can open the eyes of one person, then I guess it wasn’t for nothing! There are some who have been a great support to me, most of whom are also walking this journey.
It’s been almost a year now and we are doing biomedical healing and he is doing much better. It’s been a long hard road and I wish I could go back. I would trust my gut and protected my precious boy from vaccines.
On a side note: it will be over my dead body before anyone vaccinates my children again.
S. Andrews, mother of four